You know you always have someone who it feels like will always be a part of you. For me it’s someone I met in 3rd grade, but it’s far more complicated than that. She feels like a sister to me, and even though we’ve been through so much together I think I just might have to be done with it all. It’s not that I don’t love her or that I won’t always love her. It’s that she’s just stuck in such a vicious cycle that seems to be repeating again. I can’t go there again, being a friend to someone who’s just a shell of who they really are, who they really could be if they could just give a damn...always giving and giving and giving and rarely receiving. I’ve got too much on me to carry someone else. I had really high hopes of this cycle being broken...
I know I should really give her a chance...maybe things are as stressed and strange as she says. The sad thing is there are several signs coming together all at the same time and I don’t have to be psychic to see where the road is headed. We’ve been there several times and I don’t have it in me to do it again.
How far is too far for someone like that? Do you take the chance and hope the trip isn’t going where your gut says it is (and where it’s been more times than you can count) or do you pass up the trip for your own good?
*sighs*
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